So... I kinda made the light go out of someone today... No, I didn't kill anyone before you ask, but I kinda fucked around with someone's head.

I told Chris Co-op that the only reason he gets spoilt in the caff was cause the 30+ ladies wanted to mother him, because, 'He's alone, and we just wanna mother him because he's single and has no-one else.' At the time it felt good, for all the times he's taken the piss out of me, and for saying that my engagement ring was a cheap piece of metal, and for just generally being an asshole.

But... Now I think over it, it kinda seems tight. I mean, it's not his fault that Lampeter is shit when it comes to talent, and he can't find anyone to mess around with... But at the same time it's like, 'Well, if he's gonna look at my tits, tell me that my favourite drink is like 17 shillings in "Adult money" and that I look like a teacosy, he deserves being told the truth.'

But to apologise a day later seems kinda... shit. I want to apologise, not because anyone put pressure on me to apologise, but because I know that if someone said something like that to me I would feel fucking shit afterwards too.

...

But it's not like he's gonna read this... I don't think.

:/

Knowing my luck, Delyth Pantri took pity on me, cause I wasn't working... I wouldn't want some upstart telling me that though. Shiiiiit... I should really apologise. If not for him, but for my own guilty conscience.

...

Fuck.

Rach xxx